LSAT II and II Rejections

Happy New Year to You! If you are reading this, I hope that everything you desire comes true in this New Year. I want to first start off by saying that despite what’s going on the United States, remember not everyone is like the current commander in chief. Rather many people in this country can be kind, generous and accepting of others. However, when the media fuels someone’s hate by constantly broadcasting it, that very reporting can bring out the bad side of a nation. Remember that is only a small few and many of us here in the United States support those seeking safety.

This blog in my road to law school entry is about rejection and preparing for something you know you suck at. First, I’ll discuss what I suck at. I am a horrible test taker, especially standardized test. I think the reason why it is not my strong suit has to do with the fact that I always believed that if I failed this test, then that meant I was a failure in other aspects of my life. I realized it in elementary school when they told me that if you did not do well on standardized test, then you would not get in to the best high schools. So I remember being panicked out of my mind and very well I did not do as well as I could have. In high school, it was the SAT which I panicked with both and took a prep class and still did not do as well as I could have. But that did not stop me from going to college and trying my best. Now that I am in college, it is the LSAT. The test that can determine how much financial aid from the school that I am given. The first time I took the LSAT I was calm, yet deep down I was still very anxious. I was worried about that if I did not do well, then I would not be able to accomplish my goals of helping people. I just have to remember that one number does not and will not dictate how far I will go in life on Saturday.

That idea of making sure I do not put too much pressure on this score does not always ease the mind when it comes to rejections. Even though I am taking the LSAT for the second time, I have applied to all of the law schools I have a strong interest in attending, but I am still uneasy. Even though I feel greatly accomplished by applying to all of the schools, I received two rejection emails. I was sad because I thought that even though I had a low LSAT score I still had a great resume and pretty ok GPA. In no way shape or form am I perfect nor do I pretend to be, but it still hurts on the inside when you do not get into a specific school. These particular schools were not my number one which gives me hope. But there will always be that idea of doubt. However, as I continue down my road to law school I know that for one door that closes, anther and better door will open. So to the person reading this who feels rejected and do not want to take a graduate school exam, keep going, life always seems to get better when everything goes wrong, but you have to keep going to see the better.

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2017 and Growth

I am so happy to announce that I have submitted all of my law school applications. I can honestly say that it was the best feeling ever. It felt as though that I had done something major. Almost like having a baby minus the pain of pushing out a baby. However honestly speaking, uploading and filling out the info on the LSAC website was a bit tedious because it was going slow, but I honestly would do it all again. I choose to stay in state for law school because of money. Law school itself is expensive. However, when you add in the cost of living for certain places, it could possibly require me to take out more loans. Plus, the schools that I have chosen have all of the programs that I am interested in. I am very excited about the possibility of taking on a new challenge. But after going through this experience I have learned to just ask about certain things. I had a college where I would have had to pay for an application fee, and I honestly thought they might say no, but I called and asked and all I had to do was send an email. It’s always the little things that make me happy. That’s the type of attitude I want to continue in the new year.

Every year I see people post about “new year new me”. I am one of the people who believes that one does not need the first of the year to change. However, I believe that the “new me” develops when we least expect it. I know for me, that’s exactly what happened. I honestly came into 2016 with no expectations of changing. Even though in the beginning of 2016, I knew I was studying abroad. I did not anticipate the inner change that I would go through. That change brought back the idea of me going to law school because the girls that I was staying with was talking about grad school.

After going through this year with a variety of experiences. I can honestly say that after completing my study abroad, I am a new me. I’ve grown into the person I had always imagined I would be. Since I’m shy I am thinking of the many times that I spoke about my feelings more times this year than I ever had in my life. Also I see myself feeling more comfortable about speaking what’s on my mind and not filling ashamed of it. Maybe it was my internship or studying abroad, whatever it was I am so happy for what 2017 is going to bring. I know that I will have my frustrating moments and there will be times that I am doubting what I am doing. However, I know that I will remain on the path that I was meant to be on which is helping those who want it. My personal best advice to those entering into 2017 is to go in with goals, but allow them to grow so that while achieving a goal, you are learning something about yourself as well.