Even though I have only been in graduate school for a few months and will be wrapping the program up in May, once of the most important lessons I learned is that I have to trust myself more. For most of my life, I have struggled with trusting my intuition and being organized on the inside. However, I have learned that graduate school has its own category and the mechanisms you once used for undergraduate, does not work for graduate school. Trying to find new ways of handling things has been challenging. I honestly wish I could say it was easy for me to find a way to cope. I am a few months away from completing my program and I still have no clue of how to manage everything I am doing. When changes happen so rapidly in your life, people expect for you to flow with the changes easily. However, that is not always the case. It can be hard to figure out what your next step is, especially when you spent so much time doubting yourself. However, I can say once you begin to step away from your work and just take a breath, trusting yourself can be a little bit easier.
Since I am in my last semester in graduate school, I can honestly say no I have not completely trusted myself during this process. And I have stayed in bed many times when I knew I should have been using my time to complete new task. I should know by now that if I choose to stay in bed or even lay down for a minute, then the likelihood of me getting up to do my work was none. I need to have trust in the fact that I am in this graduate program to help mold me into the professional I know I am meant to be. I need to trust myself to get up, get out of bed and do what I must do. Even if I do not have the right motivation, I know that I am worth putting effort into something. my advice to anyone reading this is, trust yourself to know that everything you do is for a reason and provides a lesson. Even if the lesson sucks, it was needed to help build the trust inside of you.
I am excited to say that this week had my last first day of formal education. When I say formal education, I mean in terms of getting up daily to go to school and doing homework for teachers. I will forever be a lifelong student because I enjoy reading leisurely about topics that will help to grow my mind, body and spirit. It is honestly a bitter sweet moment realizing that is my last first day of school.
School in general has taught me a variety of lessons. Those lessons ranged from the importance of knowledge, the power of connections and the significance of stepping outside of your comfort zone. However graduate school thus far has taught me the importance of truly stepping into who you are meant to be. This task I have always suffered with because I was constantly burying who I was due to pressure from others and from a fear of constantly being disliked. But this one year graduate program has really taught me thus far to step into who I was meant to be and to never let fear stop me. When we silence the fear inside of us, it allows for people to be able to complete their true desires. Some of my desires were going to the gym, but I had a fear of people potentially judging me about it. But while in school, I decided I wanted to feel good and eat better. By doing these things it taught me an important lesson of I can still care about my physical well-being without sacrificing for my educational well-being. Even if we cannot silence the fears completely, we should keep going with hopes realizing that life is about taking a fear and making the best out of a situation
Since I am going into my final semester currently, I have finally created a schedule that would work best for me and I am excited to see where this semester will take me. Even though I graduate in May and do not have much time, I know that I can accomplish all that I desire to do and have the skills from school to conquer them. So, cheers to the last semester …. Well may be for now😊
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