Body Happy and the Holidays

On the 20th of each month I weigh myself. But from this past November 20th, I put on a few pounds. However, I was not sad, rather motivated to keep going and to learn some new habits. The most important lesson that I learned was even though I am working out in the gym, I cannot just eat anything that I wanted. I realized that my eating habits get bad when I am stressed out. For the past few weeks, I have been stressed over school. But I was excited for the thanksgiving holiday because it is a time for reflection, thankfulness and food. I was nervous about the food part because I know that sometimes (and often in the past) I would over eat. Plus considering that I put on a few more pounds, I did not want to add more fuel to fire.
The day before thanksgiving, I had to give myself the holiday pep talk. It went something like this “I know you want to indulge and eat more than portion size, however think of the time you ate a donut the day before you worked out and your felt as though you were going to die. You don’t want that feeling again”. This was the talk I had to give myself and it worked. Now honestly, speaking I did eat a tad bit more of portion sizes, but I did not eat as much as I would have in past years. To me that’s improvement. I had not fully believed that it had worked until I went shopping today and tried on a dress. Now something you should know about me is I am a frugal 22-year-old, but there was something about this dress that was calling to me. When I was looking at the dress it, in a way, spoke to me and said try it on. I thought I would not have been able to fit it, but my heart was telling me to try it on. So, I did. And I smiled the whole time while I was in the dress. Now I believed that I could not fit it because I usually could not fit a 14/16, but this time I did and I’m glad I tried. So, if your reading this, do not be ashamed for trying on a new outfit no matter how much you ate. Just make sure you smile and eat pie!


Body Happy

Maya Angelou said “If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude”. I truly love this quote by Maya Aneglou because it truly represents everything that I am going through with my weight loss journey. All of my life I have always neglected losing weight because I believed that I could always put it on the back burner. I will admit that overtime I did try to lose weight and dedicate myself to the process however an emotional toll would take over me and I would begin to over eat again and never care to try again. So, in the beginning of my semester of graduate school, I made a crucial and life changing decision. I decided that for one year I would put myself first. I started my making a list of things where I was neglecting myself. The three things that I wrote on a post it notes was: my weight, my appearance and my emotional health. Thinking back on when I was trying to work on my weight, I was not doing it for me. I was doing it for others, just so they would leave me alone about it. Each of these three things I work on daily, however this blog entry is specifically about my weight. Here are four things that I am doing to keep me going:

  1. Not looking at the number- this has honestly always been the problem when thinking of my weight loss. I always focused on the number on the scale or the numbers on the treadmill. I was obsessed with those numbers. Now, I am more focused on how I feel and if I am happy. By choosing to not focus on the number, the weight came off easily. I’m still not close, to my ideal weight, but I will not obsess over that number, rather enjoy the journey and gain lifelong habits.
  2. Being ok if I stay- when I tried to lose weight in the past, I would always get upset when I was not fully committed to my process. However, I soon learned that if I did better the next day or hour than I could carry along as before. Mistakes happen. Sometimes set backs are away for you to learn, and develop new habits.
  3. Changed my attitude- along this journey, I have learned that it does not help to be upset when things are not as good as they seem. The best solution is to smile and remind myself that I am still amazing and beautiful. My typical attitude would always have me being sad when things did not go my way. But now, I decided to smile and be happy for the little things. (I still must work on smiling when in public)
  4. Forgiveness-this part has honestly been the hardest because it requires some heart work. For me, forgiveness required me to be at peace with the fact that I will make mistakes and over eat at times or even when I become sad when I do not lose the weight I want. I now understand that no matter how much I mess up, I can still pull through and do better each day.

In conclusion, body happiness is when not only your attitude changes, but you appreciate your body the way it is because the body is beautiful with every stretch mark, layer of fat, with every curve or none. Be appreciative of it and always smile because this is my journey and no one can take that from me.