This week I decided to write my wanderlust side a letter. The reason being I am taking a trip in the next week and I never really talk about that side of me and I think it will be something fun to do.
Dear Wanderlust Side of Me,
Thank you for finally coming out of me back in 2016. I saw you peeking out many times throughout my childhood especially when your one of few seventh graders who is focused on going to Kenya in college. Plus, I saw you peeking out many times prior to that. How many people do you know would say they would give up a gift for graduation to wait an extended period for a trip? I was thinking about how you have truly taken over, which honestly, I enjoy because you get to be fearless at times with common sense. Each trip I watch you grow and develop into the wonderful woman you have become. I know that you are a part of me, but I see parts of that spirit coming out during the day when I hear you say be bold and don’t let people take advantage of you. Or even when you say enjoy the small moments. Sometimes I wonder if you could just transform and take over. But then I hear you whisper to me that it isn’t necessary for you to completely take over because you are always a part of me and that you will never leave. Finally, thank you for always encouraging me to look forward to new things that will help me to grown not only through travel but through life as well.
Many times, we hear the words let go and everything will work out. Sometimes when we let go, things tend to fall apart, while at other times things go well. I find letting go to be quite refreshing because it allows you to start over and to show your true self.
This week I was able to let go my fear of not being good enough. For so long I used to believe that when I try something new that I am never good enough, but sometimes it takes others to point out that you are doing fine. This week it took for one of my friends to help me realize that I am supposed to be pursued and not chasing. I had been talking to a guy for over a month and we never met because neither one of us would follow up with meeting and it was almost me planning the days and times we met. I was honestly thinking of letting him go, but I thought that I was overreacting. Then my friend told me to let the guy try and we have not talked since the last time I reached out. That’s when I realized I had to let go. Not necessarily let go of finding the one but letting go the need to constantly must plan things when it comes to my love life.
I’ve realized that when you let go of the need to control certain things that you can become free to fill your time with things that matter. My message this week is let go of the need to have control and just enjoy life, while smiling.
For this week in breaking cycles, I want to talk about waiting. Sometimes waiting can be tough. Like many people I want things now and in perfect condition. At times I find myself wanting the success without willing to become uncomfortable for a while. Even when looking for the love of my life, I really do not want to wait because one gets tired of waiting for the right thing, person or opportunity. But this week I learned that waiting is not only inevitable, but once we get what we desired we, at times, tend to want to go back to the wait. What I have learned from so many people is to enjoy the wait.
I remember one summer I desperately wanted a job after my first year in college. I wanted to make money to pay for tuition. I began working the middle of July and have been working ever since. I look back on that waiting period and realize I have never had a period like that off again. Several weeks to just lay around and relax. At times I miss it, but I understand now the importance of enjoying the wait. It is during the times that we wait where we learn about ourselves and learn to appreciate what we have.
Right now, I am waiting for the right full-time opportunity and until then I will continue to work and gain the skills I need for the right time. The wait can be boring and annoying; however, I have learned a lot about me during the preparing season, rather than the harvest. This week I challenge anyone reading this to grown during your wait season and smile during the process.
I am in a stage in life where people are asking me questions I honestly do not have the answer to what you want to do with the rest of your life. Apparently saying I want to marry rich and life off a yacht is not the appropriate answer. Some days I am sure you feel the same way. No one ever tells you that after you graduate that you can sometimes get into a cycle of go to work, come home and watch tv or go out with friends. I don’t mind being with my friends, but I am not ok with “cycles”. To me cycles are circles that we get into and like a true circle it can be hard to break out of without will power. And for the past couple of weeks I have been, unfortunately, I have been a part of that circle. Well, that stops today. For the next couple of weeks, I am breaking the cycle. Each week, I will do something that I would not typically do. I not saying I will climb Mount Everest in a week (maybe in a few). But I do not want to fall into the post graduate school cycle of just applying to jobs and being home. So I hope you stay along for the journey, like, subscribe, share below how you came out of a cycle and be sure to smile at life’s moments