Traveling to everyone is different. I am not only talking about traveling in terms of getting on a plane, bus, train or boat, but i mean the journey through life. So many commercials on tv have quick fixes to life-long problems. Even social media will have advertisements about things coming quickly and that sometimes we forget to enjoy the journey. Sometimes the journey is the best part because not only do we learn so much about ourselves, but we get to truly test our capabilities.
This week I found myself becoming impatient. I have always been an ambitious person; however, I was and honestly still am frustrated with the process. I remember feeling the same way when I was in college. I wanted the next stage to come quicker. Then I realized I needed the lessons or I would be forever repeating the same lessons. For example, I have an ex who has a great heart however we were toxic for each other. He was never consistent, and I was not willing to love fully. So as one could imagine we had a great deal of problems. Recently we reconnected and had a great conversation. I thought this could be the one for me since this was another go around. However, my intuition told me I was about to go down the same path I did when I was 18, if I continued to talk to him. But in true ambitious form, I ignored it. Now it’s been almost two weeks since I last heard from him. I lost myself and $30 to that person. I was mad at myself because I physically felt that I should not have gone back down that road. However, I was hopeful. There is nothing wrong with being hopeful, but what I learned from this experience is my intuition muscle is very strong and that I needed to go down this road to show myself that you can easily do the same things at 23 as you did at 18. I’m not mad nor do I hate him, but I must close the door on that chapter, to embrace the new one that has been sparked inside of me.
Never believe that the journey you are on is insignificant. Your journey is bound to shape the woman/man you are called to be. The journey at times may suck and may cost you some money however the growth that comes from it will prepare you for your destination. In this case, I will be more prepared to when my future husband comes because I will fully have ingrained in my head that true love requires both parties to pour into each other. Not one party pour into the other and leave the other dry. I am grateful for that stop along this journey. Embrace the journey and don’t forget to smile.