I know I have not written in a few weeks. However I was in the mist of finals and I honestly could not think of what to write. Finals to me are the worst time to attempt to do other things. Usually because I get stressed to the point that I want to sit in a corner and cry rather than confront my problems. Then it did not help that the fact that things were not going well at work. However I have learned that during the tough times, you have to learn to pull through until the end. I know that sounds cliché but that is honestly what has kept me sane over the past few weeks.
This blog entry is about coming to the realization that in one week I will have another degree. A master’s degree. Since its graduation season, I wish everyone who is graduating nothing but the best and i am hoping for great prosperity for you. For me I honestly do not know how to feel. This whole experience this semester has made me numb. Some may be confused about how someone who has achieved a major accomplishment would feel numb. Well let me explain. For the past semester I have been working two jobs, which is honestly the most tiring thing I have ever done. I do not have a post-graduation plans such as a “big girl” job nor any desire to continue my education at this point. Which honestly, I am not too worried about because I can easily work myself up to the ladder at my second job. Then i get this feeling of I should be doing what every other 23 is doing. Then i remember that i am not like every 23 year old. What I want to do and what I need to do will always differ from the next person, it may look similar.
My message to anyone who is about to graduate, first congratulations you did something many people would not consider doing. Second, don’t worry if you do not have a set plan upon graduation its OK never make people feel as though you are falling behind, everything will make sense in due time. Third and finally, never ever compare yourself to anybody. Comparison will get you in a dark place and will cause you to think that you are a bad person for not being further along in your journey, when you are where you need to be.
Please feel free to like and comment about a time you felt numb or when you when you were unsure of things in your life. But remember to always smile.