Even though I have only been in graduate school for a few months and will be wrapping the program up in May, once of the most important lessons I learned is that I have to trust myself more. For most of my life, I have struggled with trusting my intuition and being organized on the inside. However, I have learned that graduate school has its own category and the mechanisms you once used for undergraduate, does not work for graduate school. Trying to find new ways of handling things has been challenging. I honestly wish I could say it was easy for me to find a way to cope. I am a few months away from completing my program and I still have no clue of how to manage everything I am doing. When changes happen so rapidly in your life, people expect for you to flow with the changes easily. However, that is not always the case. It can be hard to figure out what your next step is, especially when you spent so much time doubting yourself. However, I can say once you begin to step away from your work and just take a breath, trusting yourself can be a little bit easier.
Since I am in my last semester in graduate school, I can honestly say no I have not completely trusted myself during this process. And I have stayed in bed many times when I knew I should have been using my time to complete new task. I should know by now that if I choose to stay in bed or even lay down for a minute, then the likelihood of me getting up to do my work was none. I need to have trust in the fact that I am in this graduate program to help mold me into the professional I know I am meant to be. I need to trust myself to get up, get out of bed and do what I must do. Even if I do not have the right motivation, I know that I am worth putting effort into something. my advice to anyone reading this is, trust yourself to know that everything you do is for a reason and provides a lesson. Even if the lesson sucks, it was needed to help build the trust inside of you.